TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN

There are times in the day,
when im feeling blue,
why you wonder?
well that's a question to pounder.
have you really left me?
is our friendship not meant to be?
i notice that we hardly talk,
and you always avoid me when you walk.
feelings are left unsaid,
and the hatred begins to spread.
cause you are my friend and i really care,
about the time we used to share.
but now this time is gone.
i wish we could be close again...or at least try,
cause for the time we have lost i've had time to cry.
cause our friendship was honest and true,
and my biggest loss was being friends with you.
for the time we've spent apart,
have caused me to have a broken heart.
i don't know about you but i'm sure about me,
i miss the way our friendship used to be.
so is it true? are you my friend?
or is the friendship that i loved...come to an end?

just thinking

today i was just thinking. about yesterday and today and tomorrow. of yesterday i think about were Ive been, what Ive gone through, things that Ive done. the happy times sad times wonderful times and the angry times. and then i think of the times i wasted and threw away. i regret so much of the bad times. but that was yesterday. today i look towards the future and the life that god has waiting for me, the plans, the good times and the hard times, i know that the yesterday will affect my today, but so long as god is by my side anything is possible. i think of how I'm maturing through god and becoming who i am. the future is coming and that is the part i think about the most. i have a hard time trusting god and having faith, putting things , situations in his hands, its hard to let go and let him take care of it, i realize that if i don't soon ,the beautiful life that he has waiting for me will disappear from me. everything seems better when i know what will happen, i don't know what to do ,i try but some how i just cant trust..... Ive put my trust in things of me, and other people and they have failed. i don't want to be hurt by my actions and mistakes, like i have been. i let my self down ....to much. i know that god does not want us to throw pity parties but i have to let it out some how. i know he hears me, at night when i pray and tell him about things, and i feel that he wants to move in my life but I'm not letting him. it hurts, i have a tight grip and cant let go, Ive failed more than enough and if i just go with the wind and let god control i feel like.....i wont have control, knowing, having the knowledge, of the future is of value to me, i know that everything will be what my heart desires, from god but then why? this is my struggle right now trusting god and forgiving myself from things its in my mind every minute. i know he is here with me and i thank him for every blessing he has given me.

LISA HENRY

I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD FIND SOMEONE WHO CARED FOR ME AS MUCH AS YOU DO. THERE ARE NO WORDS TO DESCRIBE HOW SPECIAL AND HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME. WHEN THEY SAY GOD SEND I THINK OF YOU. THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE AND JUST BEING WHO YOU ARE THAT JUST SEEING YOUR SMILE AND THE LITTLE SPARKLE IN YOUR EYES MAKES MY DAY. YOU ARE A TRUE BLESSING NOT JUST IN MY LIFE BUT IN EVERY ONES LIFE. WHEN I FIRST SAW YOU I THOUGHT WHAT A CRAZY WHITE LADY, AND SHES OFF HER ROCKER:), BUT THEN I SAW WHAT A SPECIAL PERSON YOU REALLY ARE. YOU AND JOHN HAVE BLESSED ME IN SO MANY WAYS THAT I CANT THANK YOU ENOUGH. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU HAVE NO IDEA. YOU HAVE TAUGHT ME SO MUCH AND PUT UP WITH ME THAT I HAVE NEVER SAW SOMEONE WITH THAT KIND OF PATIENCE. GOD HAS MADE SUCH AN EXTRAORDINARY WOMEN AND ANYONE WITH WHO EVER GETS TO KNOW YOU LIKE I HAVE WILL BE BLESSED BEYOND MEASURE. TE QIERO CON TODO MI ALMA(i love you with all my heart)-LOOPY BRENDA THE WHINER

TO LALA,
YOU ARE A FRIEND SO BEAUTIFUL BEYOND WORDS CAN DESCRIBE. I CANT REALLY WRITE POEMS LIKE YOU SO I'M JUST GONNA WRITE YOU A LETTER. YOU ARE A TRUE EXAMPLE OF A FRIEND, DAUGHTER, SISTER, AND YOUNG LADY OF GOD. WHEN I FIRST CAME TO CHURCH I WAS JEALOUS OF YOU BECAUSE YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL YOU LITE UP A ROOM WITH YOUR DORKY SMILE, YOUR SWEETNESS AND HUMILITY TOWARDS OTHERS IS SO AWESOME I CANT DESCRIBE. WHEN SOMEONE SAYS WHO DO YOU THINK IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PERSON I THINK OF YOU. I KNOW WERE NOT ALL PERFECT BUT YOU COME PRETTY CLOSE. GOD HAS BLESSED ME WITH YOU AND I TOOK FOR GRANTED THAT BLESSING FOR A WHILE, BUT I JUST WANT TO TELL YOU, THAT YOU ARE TREASURED IN MY HEART ALWAYS AND FOREVER.
LOVE -BRENDA THE BLONDIE :)

Oh, to be lying, On a beach, Somewhere, With sand in my toes, And the wind, In my hair.

And only the sound, Of the seagulls, On high, On a beach, Somewhere, Under sunny blue sky.

The gentle caress, Of the waves, On the shore, And you close, Beside me, Could I ask for more?

A soft sandy beach, That goes on, Forever, You, me, And a beach, So happy together.

my christmas weekend

i just wanted to write about my Christmas weekend but i don't think people actually read my posts but oh well. anyways this Saturday we went to marcus's first kickboxing class in a real mma training gym it was fun to see all the little kids punching and kicking. then we went to my aunts house down in San Diego, i was making cookies for like 5 hours i was tired. i was going to go to crossroads but i was tired and no one really wanted to take me. them Livia called me and asked if i could spend the night so i did, and she picked me up we stayed up till 2, she was making the rest of the costumes for the Christmas play, and we were talking and just hanging out my sister went also. then Sunday morning was church after we went out to eat with my family,the lugos and ternisha. after we went over to lugos house and we practiced our song that were going to do for new years.then i went with ternisha to miss Valerie's house. Inez Alicia and a new girl that comes to church, alley they were making treats to pass out for Christmas. then that night was the christmas play it was so funny all the kids did really well. genivie was the cutest though i think. then after me and alicia spent the night at Livia's...... again we stayed up all night i had so much fun with her we hadn't hung out for so long. then in the morning we went to miss Julie's house for a fellowship breakfast we were all sing karaoke it was so funny.  

alicia

this is for alicia i know that your gonna read this so i just wanna say that your such a crackhead and a super nerd....but i love you and imm so glad to see you again cuz i missed you super mucho. god made us best friends cuz he knew that our parents couldnt handle us as sister. when we are together forget it were crazy fools!!! love you gurl dont ever change

HELLO THERE

hey i just set up this new blog and im still working on it i dont relly know exactly what to put on it cuz....yeah i just dont know. anyways i just got back from Oregon, i stayed with John and lisa in beaverton i went up there for school and just to visit with them. it was really great i had so much fun. and i got to make new friends and meet new people. If i had to choice i would move up there in a minute. I got to expirence what a new pioneer church is like and got to see how things work and saw how its just pretty much all about souls and having a heart for souls. I really really mis lisa john austin and of course bridgett. i really feel like im home sick but i live here. anyways there always on my mind.